Lately

I gone for a holiday at all this year. It has been work work work. Due to my project. When my project ended in Oct, I wanted to take a break. During MATA fair, my friend and I went to buy those ground packages. Planned for a long awaited trip to BKK.

Then... bad news had to prod along. My TL, has been in this other proj for while since last year. He travelled to Canada and USA for this proj. Suddenly when its about to come to implementation time, he is passing the bug to someone else. Guess who is the lucky soul - ME!!!!
And the worse thing is, they have a workshop in US next month. But i can't go!!!! WHY? coz it clashes with my vacation.

Yeah some might say just cancel your trip. But have you to understand, its just no me involved in this vacation. My friend will be damn pissed. Coz she was looking forward to this also. So I stand firm in going for my vacation regardless. Sometimes when you give in too much to the co, it becomes more detrimental to you rather than otherwise.

So its my luck. don't get to go but have to work on the project. When will my luck get better.
anyways.. my visa has expired!!! hehehe so if i get to go...(if they change the dates!!!, pray!!!and hope they do), then I can get new visa on the expense of the co.. MUAHAHAHHAHAA

Lets see how it goes.

Oh yeah.. I have spent my Award money!!!! :P The secretary was complaining how I was the last one still who has not submitted it for claim. Well next is my dead line.. doing it first thing in the morning. :P (will take photos of the staff.... and post it)

P/S On another topic, I have been trying real hard to stay positive. Glad to say it has brought some good feeling within me. Eventho' i still go through bouts of sadness once a while.

Things that you said you would but never gotten to do it...

You know what i meann rite? Year after year that new year resolution, that month resolution, etc etc. hehehe.

But u end up not doing nothing about it.

Aiii. sad to say I have some task pending. I know i should do it more regularly but somehow the lazy bone got better of me.

I need to lose weight. And I did embark on that. Then half way off, it sizzled off.. hehehe....
I need to start it again. I met up with ringgit yesterday, and he commented i put on weight. :(

Aiyoooo.. dunno what to do.
Its the age believe me. i don't eat much... but yet.. its boom boom up the scale.

List of things i should get going on
1) Lose weight - ideal would be 50KG
2) repaint the apt.
3) save money to furnish the other room with bed and a cupboard.
4) GET ME A HUSBAND!!!! :P

Ok better not have too many!!!!

The story of the Raven

The Story of about ravens. Or as most of us here would call it the crow.
as we all know, all those spooky, evil - devilish shows always have the raven in it. Raven the sign of ill omen.
Yesterday I went to watch the movie Seekers and as usual when there is a story about darkness vs light... good vs evil, ravens appears throughout the movie. On a side note, I do not recommend watching this show... not worth your money lah.

Anyways... when watching the show, it triggered some memory, something which happened to me about 1 month or so ago.

Here goes... MG's encounter with the Raven.
One Sat morning, I decided to follow my sister to this mall... there are some shops close by to the mall where my sis takes her daughter for music lessons. I had wanted to get something from the mall so I decided it would be ideal for me to just get a ride with and then wait till the music class ends and I shall get her to pick me up.

around 1.30pm, I left the mall and waited as instructed at this side of the road near the cross road... As i was standing reading the JJ's mag, i felt something like flew pass my head - almost touching my hair - maybe it did i wasn't sure. Then i turn and i saw this crow behind me.. perched on a bill board.

I moved a little to my left.. - moving down the road.. and finally settling infront of a TNB power box. suddenly the very same crow flew infront of me and stared at me right in the eye. I had an uneasy feeling and my heart started to beat really fast. I felt something wasn't right. It was like watching me and waiting to attack me. I quickly reached in to my tshirt and pulled out my crucifix and within seconds , the crow flew away right to the other far end corner of the road - on my right.

Phew....
So what do you take of this.????

When I spoke to my mom about this, she told me that maybe "IT" sensed something good about me... so its more like good vs evil.

So what they say is true, when you're closer to God, the more you need to pray..... Don't let down your guard.. coz "ITS" always awaiting for the moment when you let down your guard...

Or for the less religious, this could be just a freak incident.

Either way, I thank my Guardian Angel and the good Lord for giving me the wisdom to pull out my crucifix.

I wonder...

day after day
week after week
month after month
year after year...

Its a cycle that goes on and on.
U wake up, you go to there.. eventho' sometimes your heart just don't feel like doing it.
Your legs gets real heavy and as soon as you're there, your moods just dies.
Your day turns blue.
Gets worse when you have to talk to some arseholes. Who annoys you to pieces....

Recently i read two articles... each talks about how you can never be truely happy with the tang of sadness creeping in. coz thats part of life.. its a norm.

Hmmm....... and i read this in a religious news paper... hmmmmmmmmm
written by a priest............... hmmmmmmmmmm
hehehee
I AM NORMAL LEH!!!!!!!!!!
ITS NORMAL TO BE BLUE ONCE IN A BLUE MOON
BLUEEEE MOOOONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

The End of a Chance

Have I thought about it since I made the decision about 2 years ago? Of course.

Sometimes my mind goes back and forth. Wondering if I have made the right decision.

Most of the times, these thoughts come about when I am facing tough times at work.

I guess its not so much of a regret but more of pondering.

But who knows someday a chance might come up again but maybe this time to a place that I really want to go to.. and would pack and go in just a blink of an eye.